No, I’m not dead. Just in a deadish place.
Sometimes I pray and it feels like the prayers bounce off the inside of the ceiling. Sometimes, when it feels like this for long enough, I stop praying for a while. I feel certain that I should be praying, that continued prayer is what a more mature person would do, but sometimes I stop anyway. The last few weeks have been one of those times.
I have hesitated to write for that very reason. But this blog is about what it’s really like to try to follow Jesus, not what it’s “supposed” to be like, so I find myself inclined to write about even this, about not praying.
There’s more to come on this soon (relatively speaking), but tonight, in addition to not feeling like praying, I also do not feel like writing, so that is all I’m going to say for now.
Hello friend!!! Lately I am almost always in a funk with God. I don’t I really don’t know whats wrong with me. Sometimes I just give up…. I know hes there and I try to live my life right, but I forget to praise him and think often about all he has done for me. Ugggg.
This is NOT what I think your feeling, but I do know I need to get back to my core beliefs. I have been farting around on sidetracking trails for quite some time! I feel like I don’t remember how to live for God! BTW Church doesn’t help… You know the people I cant identify with anyone there.
Oiy I wont even start on the new minister, talk about nap time. Is that bad? I suppose I should consider a new church fam! Any other ideas for me?
left by jessica w on 04.19.2007 at 11:05 pm